Time. They say time never heals....yet when I'm hurt its always time that makes me feel better. I have thought about you so much. About everything up till now. About how maybe I'm not the right person...maybe I'm wishing and praying for all the wrong things and reasons. I now realize just how stupid and pointless I can get. I own up to it. this is my mistake. I will pick up each piece and fix myself. I'll stop chasing you. because I'm out of breath. I'll stop.....breath....turn around....and run....no... walk the other way. Because if you will always love me, you'll stop running and turn around to find me. But this time I'll just keep walking forward....all over again.
I have had so many dreams, goals and ambitions that sometimes never end up happening and it becomes frustrating.
ReplyDeleteI can in some way relate to this feeling you are describing. I chase after a dream - about anything, me and a career, me and a certain person, I don't know - just any sort of dream - and then realize, that the dream was one that was never real - never true, never going to come true - because it was not planned for me by God.
So I get to the point where I have to step back, surrender and say..."Lord, let what happens in YOUR will happen in my life, not what I want - because ultimately, what You have in store for me is far better than anything I can dream of - You are my Creator, You are the first 'Dreamer'...You know what makes me happy, and You do want me to find happiness. And nothing I want can compare to what You want for me. I have to fall back and trust You. For You are the Author of my love story, and it is unfolding slowly day by day."
But in the end...Never, EVER follow "your" heart. Follow God's heart for you. It will never mislead you. It will always guide you, and care for you and love you. Guard your heart, and never, ever give it away prematurely - that opens up to the gateway of regret, pain, remorse, and chasing a dream that shall never be.
Keep your heart safe - it's a keepsake - it is precious as well as priceless!
I love you!
~Rachel